"Mi Amor"

What's with her eyes...
       that seems to pierce my soul
       breaking through my defenses
       stripping me of my strength...


What's with her smile...
       that weakens my fortitude
       tearing my reasoning apart
       wearing off my logic and choice...


What's with her kisses...
        which seemingly alters my being
        bringing me in a state of unconsciousness
        of time, of reality, of emotions...


What's with her touch and caresses...
        that burns and scorches my inner sanctum
        creating a wildfire deep within
        a fire unquenchable, uncontrollable...


She inhibits me...
       She controls me...
              She overcomes what is in, out, and within me...


She is my time...
       She is my reason...
              She is my life.


How can I ever discern how she does it?


So long as I love her...
So long as I adore her...


I don't think I'll ever find the answer.


Never.

        

"Insomnia"...a poem for Mi Amor

What prompted me
  To wage war with the moon
  And turn evenings
  As an extension of the sun's day?
What stopped me
  From closing my eyes
  And give up the pleasure
  Of a deep slumber
  For a moment with you?
Why did i not let
  Time dictate
  Nor allow the day
  To grab hold of my strength?

For every ounce
  Of my blood flows instinctively,
  Pumped into my system by your HEART
  And not MINE...
Every breath that I take
  Are held by your unassuming presence
  And alluring voice...
Every nanosecond of my life
  Being controlled and turned
  Everytime that you smile...

What then can the night do
to cease the sun from turning in?
What then can time do
to measure this unearthly lifetime?

NOTHING.

For YOU are my day...
  YOU are my night...
    YOU are my moment...
       YOU are my lifetime...
  
YOU are my every breath...
  my every heartbeat...
    YOU are my body...
      My soul...
        MY LIFE!

"A LOVE Poem"

Have I ever told you
that if I sit really still and silent,
sometimes. I like to think
I can hear your heart beating
in time with mine?

Have I ever told you
that when I watch you speak to me
through lines and cords,
and bytes and ram,
I imagine
your voice,
whispering into my ear?

Have I ever told you
that I wait out each day
in anticipation,
wanting
only an hour or two,
just a second in space and time,
to feel close to you?

Have I ever told you
that there has been times,
when I ached for you,
ached for you so badly,
that the emotions overwhelmed me..
and so I sat and cried?

Have I ever told you
that sometimes,
I will reach out,
touching your name
on this cold screen before me,
wishing
I could reach in
and pull you to me?

Have I ever told you
that after the first time I heard
the sound of your voice,
thousands of miles away,
I sat up all night,
turning the conversation over and over
in my mind,
examining it,
like some newly discovered species of flower?

Have I ever told you
that I would give everything up,
just for one night
to be able to lay near you,
to feel your chest rise and fall
with each breath you take,
just to know that you are real?

Have I ever told you
that I dream of you often,
I dream of you reaching out
and touching my hand,
simply to let me know
that you are there,
and everything is okay?

Have I ever told you,
have I still yet to tell you . . .
that I love you?

~@impo_condiang / Tuesday, 25th May 2010